I was conditioned to believe that my weight and physical appearance matter more than my high IQ and academic accomplishments.
so when is it going to happen for me? is it ever going to happen? or am i just wasting my lifetime hoping that one day it will? honestly. a girl has got to know before it kills her. it only took six months this time.. six long months. only six months to make me feel 100% shitty all over again. so thanks for that. ive never doubted myself as much as i did for you. i thought it would change.. thought you would change, thought we would change. but everything stayed exactly the same.. for six months. im back to where i started, nothing gained, but everything lost. i guess we will never know if real love can ever really happen.. until we finally experience it for ourselves? if we even get the opportunity to experience it for real. until then i guess we just have to keep taking one for the team. keep hoping that maybe one day it’ll happen.. and maybe this one time it’ll be for real.
